We cannot have both our own will and God*s will.
Matthew 6:24: No man can serve two masters: for either he will hate the one, and love the other; or else he will hold to the one, and despise the other. Ye cannot serve God and mammon.
Either God is our Master or we are our own master. The master is the one whose will gets done. Our will gets us into harmful trouble and God*s will gets us into beneficial trouble. Our greatest need is for His will. We need His will now and forever. Most people want to go to Heaven, but the need that is distasteful to our flesh is having His will here and now. We love that He wants to take us to Heaven but too often we don*t want Him in charge of our lives. Nothing that occurs in Heaven will be against His will. I hope that truth doesn*t trouble you. Having His will in our lives is a little taste of Heaven. Having our own will is not. I hope that you have learned the difference. In this life, His will can be tough on our flesh but it eventually leads to what is best. Sometimes His will for us will be trials and sometimes it will be smooth sailing.
Psalms 119:71: It is good for me that I have been afflicted; that I might learn thy statutes.
2 Timothy 3:12: Yea, and all that will live godly in Christ Jesus shall suffer persecution.
Matthew 5:11: Blessed are ye, when men shall revile you, and persecute you, and shall say all manner of evil against you falsely, for my sake.
Hebrews 12:11: Now no chastening for the present seemeth to be joyous, but grievous: nevertheless afterward it yieldeth the peaceable fruit of righteousness unto them which are exercised thereby.
1 Peter 4:12-14: Beloved, think it not strange concerning the fiery trial which is to try you, as though some strange thing happened unto you: 13 But rejoice, inasmuch as ye are partakers of Christ*s sufferings; that, when his glory shall be revealed, ye may be glad also with exceeding joy. 14 If ye be reproached for the name of Christ, happy are ye; for the spirit of glory and of God resteth upon you: on their part he is evil spoken of, but on your part he is glorified.
Isaiah 43:2: When thou passest through the waters, I will be with thee; and through the rivers, they shall not overflow thee: when thou walkest through the fire, thou shalt not be burned; neither shall the flame kindle upon thee.
Psalms 66:11-12: Thou broughtest us into the net; thou laidst affliction upon our loins. 12 Thou hast caused men to ride over our heads; we went through fire and through water: but thou broughtest us out into a wealthy place.
Romans 8:18: For I reckon that the sufferings of this present time are not worthy to be compared with the glory which shall be revealed in us.