Isaiah 48:22: There is no peace, saith the LORD, unto the wicked.
Proverbs 13:15: Good understanding giveth favour: but the way of transgressors is hard.
The worst time of my life was during the many months before I surrendered my heart to the Lord Jesus and received Him. For the most part I have defined that period as a mid-life crisis. It can also be described as a time of deep depression. At the time I attended a church where I had not been encouraged to either receive Christ or surrender my life to Him. When I received Him I also surrendered my heart to Him. Because of who Jesus is and what He does when we receive Him, it is and must be both receiving Him and receiving His power and authority. If receiving Him did not include a surrender to His power and authority, I doubt that you have really received Him.
During that worst time of my life I remember going to the church I attended late at night, going in and weeping and weeping and weeping. I did not know why I was weeping. I did not know I needed. I did not know that I needed Jesus. I somehow knew that I could not fix it myself and that if anyone could fix it, that someone would have to be God. I had reached a point where I knew that I would never be wealthy. I would never be as successful as I had dreamed. My dreams were not going to come true. I was 43 years old and it was too late. I had a good job, a comfortable home, two cars, a lovely wife and a little daughter that adored me but my dreams were gone. I was at the end of myself. I was a desperate failure, so helpless that he could not even make himself happy. After those last miserable months of my life without God, He gave me a new life WITH HIM IN IT. There have been down times since I gave my heart to the Lord but they have never been so deep or as long-lasting. And there has been great, lasting and repeating joy.
Galatians 5:22a: But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, . . .
When we receive Christ we receive the Father, the Son and the Holy Ghost all at once. The Holy Spirit is the source of joy. Since I received Jesus there have been times of joy that could only be the fruit of the Spirit. He has given me joy that is unspeakable.
1 Peter 1:8: Whom having not seen, ye love; in whom, though now ye see him not, yet believing, ye rejoice with joy unspeakable and full of glory:
This thing of depression began with Adam and Eve. Read what God said to them after they sinned.
Genesis 3:16-19: Unto the woman he said, I will greatly multiply thy sorrow and thy conception; in sorrow thou shalt bring forth children; and thy desire shall be to thy husband, and he shall rule over thee. 17 And unto Adam he said, Because thou hast hearkened unto the voice of thy wife, and hast eaten of the tree, of which I commanded thee, saying, Thou shalt not eat of it: cursed is the ground for thy sake; in sorrow shalt thou eat of it all the days of thy life; 18 Thorns also and thistles shall it bring forth to thee; and thou shalt eat the herb of the field; 19 In the sweat of thy face shalt thou eat bread, till thou return unto the ground; for out of it wast thou taken: for dust thou art, and unto dust shalt thou return.
Depression and sorrow for Adam and Eve must have been far worse than any of us have experienced because they had experienced innocent and perfect lives in the presence of God and now they had separated themselves from the One who had made it perfect. Eve tried to blame Satan and Adam tried to blame Eve. But they had done it to themselves. They failed themselves and each other much like I had failed myself.